So about a month ago I broke up with my long time (10 months) boyfriend. Our relationship had been really rocky for the last 6 months and I *finally* cut my losses and ended it like I should have right when things were starting to go wrong. But hey, I learned my lesson and that's all the matters. But now I'm facing another problem. The problem with being single.
See, when I was in the relationship, I hated it. Ok, *hate* is a strong word, but I really really didn't like it. I felt like I HAD to do these things like spend all my time with him, talk to him all the time, etc etc. Can't a girl get some me-time? No? Damn. So at first, being single was ah-mazing. FINALLY I could do what *I* wanted, whenever I wanted, and I didn't have to feel guilty about it.
Buuuut then I started to get lonely. Maybe I'm just boy crazy, but every attractive (and some not so attractive) male I walked by was suddenly the most eligible and desirable bachelor ever. Which made me reeeaaaallly want a boyfriend. Someone to looove and to be sappy with and all that good stuff. I mean, I REALLY want that.
But then I remember how much I disliked being in the last relationship I was in. And perhaps it's not *relationships* I have a problem with, it was just *that* one (as it was my first long, real, solid relationship) but now I'm tremendously conflicted. It's quite a conundrum. And, I suppose, one that every single female has to try to solve. At least some of us get lucky and find the right answer for ourselves. Wish me luck!
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